Our newest addition is here… and it feels like she has been here all along! She fits right in, the big kids LOVE her to pieces, and even BEAU is adjusting well!
We were a little worried about him because he has been very adamant that HE IS THE BABY! Now he shares with everyone that “Emmie baby, and I am baby too.” There is peace and acceptance… which is better than him wanting to kill her;-)
So many people have asked me to post about our new addition and some people know how hard this pregnancy was. so I will start from about 8 weeks before she joined our family…
God threw an unexpected curve ball at us 8 weeks before I was due to have Emmie. God decided it was a good time for Kurt to be laid off from his job. He drove into the driveway that day and my heart sank. I cried… a lot. I got mad at God. I just couldn’t understand why God would do this… again! He is 7 months from graduating. Work was paying for school. Are we going to have health insurance when this little baby comes?!? We try so hard to follow God’s leading, and then God changes the plan… BIG TIME! How are we going to pay our bills? We have FOUR children and no income!
The thoughts were out of control! I cried my eyes out to my dad because I didn’t want to hurt my husband. It wasn’t his fault his position was eliminated and 6,000 people were laid off that day… but HOW?!?! How can we do this? I can’t just go back to work at the hospital while on bed rest!
The thoughts! I am black and white. I think and analyze everything and nothing about this situation could end up good right!?!?!
BUT God knew what He was doing… again!
God knew I needed help. More than I had ever needed help in my whole life. God knew Kurt needed to finish the hardest semesters of school and it wouldn’t have happened with a full time job. God knew that we needed yet another difficult life event to remind us who God is and who we aren’t.
Every single one of those worried, doubts, questions, and fears have been or are being answered each and every day since he was laid off on April 4th.
Insurance: Got you covered.
School: Got you covered.
Paying those bills: Got you covered.
Looking back now, I see the PERFECT hand of God. I told Kurt the only thing I didn’t want was to go into the hospital to give birth to my fourth baby without a job or way to pay for our lives…. and I did;-) God is so funny that way. No, there is still not a “job” and yes, my thoughts can run away with me sometimes. But God is ALWAYS faithful and I KNOW the work He has started He will complete. He knew what He was doing on April 4th and He knows what He is doing now…
This has definitely NOT been an easy road… this following God’s leading. But is has and continues to be WORTH IT!
Fast forward to 10 days overdue, just like her brothers and sister, Emmie Grace had to be forced out of her comfy little home.
People kept asking me if I was in sooooo much pain, why in the world I didn’t just have them induce me and be done with it. Trust me, the thought crossed my mind more than a few times! Beau’s labor and delivery had placed a lot of fear in my mind and I was TERRIFIED to repeat that experience again!!! My body needs 41 weeks to grow a baby, it’s frustrating, mean and just plain not fair. But with Beau, I went in on my due date to have him because hey! “This is my third, shouldn’t my body know what to do by now?!?!?”
NOPE! We FORCED my body that was NOT ready to give birth. What happens when we try and take control of situations is never good and I learned that day that as much as I can, I will try and let God control timing (although doctors will only let babies stay in so long;-)
That’s what my body needed and the difference this time was BEING READY! My body was ready! It still needed a little help but it wasn’t like Beau. Nothing about this labor was like Beau’s, praise the Lord;-)
2 hours of hard labor (that my husband had no clue was even happening because I FINALLY learned how to control myself and relax this time;-), 15 minutes of a partially effective (not fully in;-) epidural and she was born at 2:27 in the afternoon! No one was ready for her, including the nurse that ended up delivering her with no doctors in the room;-)
Emmie has continued to do what she wants since then;-)
This little girl would have made the BEST first child, all her cuddles and wanting to be held… but she makes a pretty bad fourth child that should just be fitting into the choas… not demanding so much all the time;-) She has an opinion just like her sister and her mom! Which means we need prayers for wisdom and patience;-)
But she has the biggest, most beautiful eyes I have ever seen!!! She seems to look into your soul and know things. She is my most responsive baby too! It’s like she understands what I am saying and just by talking to her, she listens. She quiets down, she smiles, she waits patiently instead of screaming at me. She is just perfectly feisty and I feel we will have our constant ups and downs of emotions with this one;-)
She has her own LOOK too!!!
All the others kids look the same= KURT. But Miss Emmie Grace has her own look and is changing every single day!
She is perfect and growing and WONDERFUL!!! I am enjoying my last little newborn (although it’s not my favorite stage of life) because it is the last. I don’t mind that middle of the night feeding and we are well on our way to 4/4 sleeping through the night by 6-8 weeks old!
Miss Emmie Grace is nothing like I imagined my last baby being. At first I prayed so hard this baby would be a little boy and was SHOCKED when the ultrasound said differently;-) I wanted to avoid A LOT of hurt caused by people I love. Things my husband and I had to work out together and things I had to learn to forgive. A little boy would have changed all of that. I would not have had to “deal” with these things. It would have been easier and there are times when it is still so hard, it hurts again… but I am so in LOVE with my little Emmie Grace and couldn’t imagince her not being here now. She came into this family for a reason and I can’t imagine if we had had a little boy now, we pray she will do great things for the Lord someday and leave her mark on the world. I LOVE having “the boys” and “the girls” in this house. I love looking into her pretty eyes and I LOVE getting to know her and seeing her little personality come out.
Each of my babies are loved so much. There are memories with each one that I will cherish forever and with this little one, it is the week we had with her before the others came home from Nana’s house. It was like a little family honeymoon! We had the time to focus ON HER. I wanted my other babies back the day we got home from the hospital and my parents fought me on it. They wanted to keep the other kids and I am so glad they did. The memories Kurt and I have with just our little Emmie Grace and us are PERFECT.
My advice to anyone having a second, third, fourth, or ninth child is if someone is willing, TAKE THEM UP ON IT! Let them keep your kiddos! Take that time with your newest little family member, just the three of you;-) It’s precious and so reminded me of bringing our first baby home with us.
Emmie Grace was 6 lbs. 15 oz., 19 1/4 long (our shortest baby my almost 2″), and was born at 2:27 p.m. (daytime is the BEST for having babies, another answer to prayer;-)
Now, 2 weeks later she is growing like a weed, 7 lb 9 oz already and just a sweet cuddly little peanut that has stolen the hearts of the 5 other people in this family. I am soooo thankful the prego phase of my life is OVER. I enjoyed it, but I am ready to move on to the harder part of raising them day in and day out to glorify God;-) Each phase of parenting has its different difficulties and I am ready to move on to the next;-)
I tell people that I just knew this time that it was different. I felt different, I thought different, I knew. I knew that this would be the last time I did this growing another human thing. I knew that the kicks would be missed but not much else;-) I knew that from this point on I will look at prego women and not wish I were them. God gives such peace to decisions when we seek Him.
He brings our hearts along to line up with His plans.
I am sitting here typing while watching my baby girl sleep… and I am reminded of the blessings God has given our family. So many people didn’t understand and most definitely judged us in our decisions to have more kids, especially with the complications and difficulty I have during pregnancy but guess what! I am alive, it didn’t kill me, and what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger;-) Yes, there are things that were not fun, and are still not fun (aka baby weight!!!!) but who cares!
I have a precious little girl who’s life is all ahead of her! God has given Kurt and I the job to raise these babes to love and glorify God forever, no easy task for sure, but God is faithful. I sometimes wonder why God blesses some people with babes and others He chooses to leave childless. There is so much in life that just doesn’t seem fair or right and I pray so frequently for all my friends desperately wanting a child and God’s answer right now is no. I have four precious babes and I don’t ever want to take them for granted.
Not even in the moments I want to strangle them for making mud pies and then tracking it all through my house, leaving a mess and inconvenience for mommy to clean up. Some people don’t have the noise and mess and chaos but would LOVE to.
We are so in love with our babes and I can’t WAIT to see them each grow up. I can’t wait to see all the amazing things they will do with the lives God has given them.
Emmie was PERFECTLY placed into our family and is the PERFECT addition to the chaos… but the girl really does need to learn to start going with the flow a little more;-) I will still take the cuddles any day, I just would like to leave the colic behind (isn’t is funny when God gives that colicky baby to you on the FOURTH… when no one has time for that;-)…
all too soon I won’t have a baby available to cuddle whenever I want a hug;-)
Welcome Emmie Grace to the mess, the chaos, the craziness, and all the love you will ever need from this little Fisher Family. We love you baby girl and couldn’t feel more blessed to be your parents!
P.S. I get to do this parent thing with the best man in the whole world! Just look at her all cuddled up on her daddy!!! This will melt my heart forever;-)
If you want to read about some of the adorable things these cute little people say, you will get some good laughs in;-)
If you want to check out how I keep my sanity with four young children, click here.